I didn't die!

Guess what God did for me?!?!  Sunday at church, Ginger was praying for me and told me I was going to have a breakthrough this week. 

Monday night, Joseph prayed with me and led me through a time when God took the pressure off of me in my life!  It was an intense and amazing time, and Sara Hayes prayed for me too on the phone.  In that hour and 20 minutes that began with me declaring, "God, I believe you can take the pressure away," God broke off the pressure I had lived under my whole Christian life- I didn't truly know there was any other way.  At the beginning of the time, Joseph told me he saw a star shape with me in the middle, and the five points of the star were five points of pressure in my life, and God had already broken off the first point.  He led me through allowing God to break off all the points, and the last one was broken by me declaring in faith that God finishes what He starts, and He HAS broken the pressure off!!!  Life has been so different since- like night and day! 

Also, I told Joseph right after that happened Monday night that one effect of the broken pressure would be that I would finally be able and free to paint prophetic pictures to God.  And I painted my first one yesterday!!  The painting shows the series of the points being broken off of the star and me inside gaining more and more life and freedom.  Yea!  My first prophetic painting with NO PRESSURE!!!!!  God doesn't want our perfection- He just wants to share love with us.

What an awesome 20th birthday present from God!  He is so big, and His love is SO BIG!!!  Come talk to me about this wonderful thing from God, and let me tell you about Tuesday night too!

I wanted to post because I am not at my home computer which won't let me post ever, not even when I want to :(  So these are things I want to say:

I love little yellow butterflies.  Almost as much as sunsets?  More than sunsets?  We don't know.

I love coffee in the mornings in my ethics class.

I love my cell and being drunk on the Holy Spirit with them last night!!!

I love loving Joseph, and I love being silly with him. :)

I love the warm, healing sunshine.

I love worshipping God with music and art.

The end.

SO, this is an update and an amendment to my previous post... God told me, "You are not in a box!!!!"  Yes, that is true, or rather He told Lauren Person at the girls' worship party convivium Friday, "Tell Sarah she is not in a box!"  Lauren said it was the most authoritative word she has EVER gotten from God, and the message was complete with a vision of a black metal box that God says I'M NOT IN!! YEA!! 

Also, if any of you who tell me you would love to be an art major too and just make art in all your classes, well..... let's see if you still think that after this:

Would you like to cut out 1,300- yes, 1.300!!!!!- 1-inch squares of paper???  Not kidding- I have to do that.  We're cutting them all out and then making a huge self-portrait with the squares using light, medium, and dark values that are on the different squares.  Needless to say, this is our final project in this class.  But, I share the 1,300 squares thing to say that a good way to see if you actually DO want to be an art major is if you answered 'yes' to the cutting-out question because, as I shared at lunch yesterday, I secretly (well, I guess not so secretly anymore) love cutting out the squares and think, "Oh this one's pretty", or "I like that one"... it's true.  So, I have mixed feelings about it, but mostly good feelings, believe it or not.  Wow.